From Self-Sabotage to Empowerment

Let us start with a little query: Are you tired of struggling?
Then let me ask you another one: who or what is causing you to struggle in your life?
Though you may not be fully aware of it right now, you are the source of everything that happens in your life. And whatever causes you to struggle originates from you.

It may not feel good to you to hear that. A part of you may forcefully resist and try to convince you that there are always outside forces that are completely beyond your control. You may also feel bad because of self-judgments triggered through these words. If you are familiar with the law of attraction, you may be beating yourself up for not being able to manifest what you truly desire and for not sending out success vibrations. Simply be aware of this part of you. It is your inner saboteur. The part of you that does not want you to succeed or to shine your light, does not want you to be in alignment with your true source of power.

But don´t see it as your enemy. Its basic purpose is not to harm, but rather to protect you. It does not want you to be the powerful being of light you truly are, as light frightens it. It knows you only through the lense of lack and limitation. It comes from fear and unconsciousness and thus fears everything that is unknown to it. That´s why it wants to keep you where you are, even if that is a place of suffering and pain.

The energies of your inner saboteur can become your fuel for empowerment, if you meet it with awareness. Fear and limitations only have power over you as long as you are unaware of the light you truly are and mistake darkness for the truth of your being.

What does this mean in more concrete terms? It means that every time you feel yourself controlled by fear and worries rather than inner peace and trust, you buy into the illusions fabricated by the part of you that feels limited and powerless. You buy into the lies of your inner saboteur.

Every time, however, you make use of these energies in an empowering way, you are allowing space for deep transformation to occur.
How do you do this?
By simply accepting these energies, being with them, experiencing them for what they truly are: expressions of a part of you that is still unaware of your greatness and that does its best to protect you. Understand its language. It could be saying something like that to you:

"I know you and I know you´re not acting in your best interest. Being open and vulnerable is dangerous as others will take advantage from it. Stepping out of mass consciousness and following your heart and intuition is dangerous, there is a reason why only few do so.
Furthermore, who do you think you are to believe you could inspire others? Do you think you´re better than everybody else? And who do you think you are to make good money while others are starving?"

We may think to be immune against these types of arguments, but we never really are as long as we have to fight them back. And after all, it´s not so much about becoming immune to them, rather about accepting and acknowledging them for what they truly are without letting yourself be limited by them.

There are thousands of further arguments your inner saboteur could come up with to try to keep you small and limited. Sometimes, they may seem very convincing to you, especially when they trigger unconscious guilt and shame. But are they true? No.

Nothing that makes you feel small, constricted, desperate and fearful ever is an expression of the truth of your being.

Whatever makes you feel vibrant, joyful, ecstatic and at peace, however, is in alignment with who you truly are. So let your own being and truth be the only answer you give to every limiting thought and feeling your inner saboteur may come up with. Your light. Your presence. Your love. Nothing more is needed. Everything inside you wants to be free, even that which seems to keep you emprisoned. If you can let it be the way it is and observe it without judgment, you´re giving it permission to leave you.

Your inner saboteur is not your inner enemy. It is the part of you that has become ignorant of the light you truly are. It only needs to be remembered, nothing more.
So whenever fear has you in its grip, meet it with love.
Whenever your mind tries to convince you of your own unworthiness, insanity, incompetence, meet it with love.
Whenever other people try to keep you small and limited, meet them with love.
But do not bow to the dictates of fear and limitations.
Feel your heart´s desires and live them. Use fear as a fuel for transformation: as the knock at your door that challenges you to open up even more completely and to let more of your light shine through.